Some people are just naturally good at sharing their emotions and feelings. They can express it so well and they can get people to understand. I am not one of those people at all! I bottle up everything and when I try to express how I feel, words don’t come out of my mouth…literally. I don’t know why it’s so hard to express my feelings, but it is. Today I’m going to share a few points about what it’s like being someone who bottles up everything…if you’re like me, you can definitely relate!
Bottle Up Feelings:
- You’re really good at putting on a smile, even when you don’t want to: I am someone who laughs A LOT and smiles a lot, so a lot of the time I’m not faking my happiness. However, sometimes when something upsets me or someone upsets me, I just have to keep putting on that smile because I don’t want to make them feel bad or anything.
- You can feel everything build up: If you bottle everything up, you can feel it piling on. The smallest negative feelings can feel like really big feelings, but really it’s just the combination of everything.
- You try and avoid confrontation and arguments: I would say this is one of the main reasons why I bottle everything up. I want to hide how I’m actually feeling because I am afraid of the outcome if I were to speak up…it’s not good…I don’t recommend it.
- You’ll be disappointed a lot: If you don’t speak your mind or speak how you feel about something, then people won’t know what you’re thinking. People can’t read minds…unfortunately, so they’re going to do whatever if they think it’s okay. This leads to a lot of disappointment, but of course you can’t tell anyone that.
- You don’t want to seem like a mess: This is probably another one of the main reasons why I bottle everything up. I don’t want people to think I’m struggling or weak. I mean most of the time I’m not struggling, but when I am, I can’t show it. If I showed it, I’d be a hot mess!
- You know you’re going to blow: When you bottle everything up, it’ll eventually be too much pressure and you’ll blow. Holding everything in can be so overwhelming and exhausting. It causes anxiety and stress. Sometimes you just need to lie in bed and cry it out… it temporarily helps, but nothing with help unless you tell whoever or whatever the actual problem.
So yeah that’s a few points of what it’s like being a bottler upper. I’ll tell you one time I never bottle up emotions…playing games. I am so emotional when it comes to winning and losing games. If you know me personally, don’t play games with me, unless you want a big reaction! But otherwise, everything else is bottled up. I’m working on expressing feelings more, but I don’t see it happening any time soon. If you have any suggestions or can relate, leave a comment down below!
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